Reading one of John Jr.’s dreams on his blog reminded me of one of the few dreams I had with an intense physical sensation. I’ve had 2 dreams that I can remember where I was shot and it was so incredibly painful. In one of the dreams I was shot multiple times at multiple points throughout the dream and I died. Then I fell into a body of dark water and everything went black. I don’t remember much from this dream, it was very disturbing and a long time ago.
The other dream I just came across in an old journal. The journal still has some empty pages, I guess that’s why I never threw it out.
The dream is from August 2012, I wrote:
I was just shot in the leg. I was going through a dark alley on a bike. Everyone I passed by had guns. Some of the people were friends. I just smiled and said, “hi.”
One guy was super sketchy. I was almost through the dark alley. There was a huge field of grass in front of me which screamed safety.
Then Boom! I’m shot down. The bullet hit my leg. It’s incredibly painful. I can’t stand up. I can’t walk.
I crawl to a house. I brace myself and stand up to open the door. It’s unlocked. It’s not my house. I scream out loud. I still feel the pain. It’s my left leg. Below the knee, in my upper calf.
I yell, “Help! Help! I’ve been shot! Please!”
Someone comes. A lady. She gets on the phone. She asks where I’ve been shot. I’m losing consciousness. Everything is slipping away. I tell her if I stop talking and relax I’ll pass out and I’m afraid I’ll never wake up again.
She asks if I’m a man or a woman. “Man,” I say. Then, “No, woman” and then I wake up.
It was like I was a man in the dream, but then my consciousness remembered I’m actually a woman.
I had to pee. I stood up in the waking world expecting to be crippled. I can still feel the sensation now. Even after coming back to bed from the bathroom. Now while lying down, I feel the sensation through the back of my knee in a line. It was so sharp. Electrifying. So real in the dream. And now I feel the residual leftovers.
(not now, that’s what I wrote)
It’s interesting to me, when I first record my dreams I always do it in present tense. But if I remember the dream later in the day and record it then, I do it in past tense. But when recording upon first waking from the dream, it’s like I’m reliving it as I’m writing it.
How do other people record their dreams? Past tense or present tense?