A few nights ago I did a Quantum Healing Hypnosis – Past life regression Therapy (QHHT) with Michael Garber of Transformotion.
This was an on-line group past life regression that Michael guided us through in a live video chat from the comfort of our homes. He did a few guided visualizations to set the scene. We were supposed to imagine different experiences with all our senses. Hearing, smelling, seeing, feeling… To fully immerse ourselves in the experience we were imagining. Then we moved into the past life part.
I thought I’d share this experience. To me it is along the same lines of dreaming and meditation. I would liken it the most to the hypnagogic state when you are aware of your physical body and location while at the same time experiencing another reality that is out of your control. I don’t know if I believe in the idea of specific past lives or what I make of this experience, but it is interesting to think on regardless. I am more inclined to believe in an idea I call “recycling” in which the energy/spirit/soul of our body is released into the collective energy of the universe (and beyond). Then new energy is plucked from this collective well when new life is born. So there is not one specific me being born again and again, but rather life in general being reborn. That doesn’t negate though, that I have had past lives that may or may not be affecting me. It would just mean my life directly before this one, was not one life, but a collection of many.
Here is the experience. In bold is his guidance and regular text is my experience:
First he has us imagine a glowing white light pyramid. Then we are encompassed by this pyramid. It will protect us and keep us safe
My body is vibrating. Tingling. Charged with energy. (I will stop here briefly just to add, that all I have to do is close my eyes and tune in and I feel a moving energy inside my body that feels incredibly good. With my breath I feel this energy flow throughout my being. It is glowing, soft, yet tingly and orgasmic. I have absolutely no idea how common or normal this easy feeling of energy within the body is. But I assume that’s why a lot of the experience I’m about to share includes all these body sensations. Perhaps this feeling is something I read in Daniel’s MacKillican’s blog called ASMR)
He has us imagine a few other things first and then leads us up to this point:
He had us create a door in our room where there was no door. Then open the door
When I did a whoosh of air flew at me (in my mind)
We walked through the door, down some stairs, down a hallway and came to another door. This door would lead us to our past life. He had us go through the door
When I went through it was like I walked through this sticky black sheet that wrapped itself around my body. It encased me like a body suit. It felt strange, but not bad.
He had us see ourselves. Where are we? What are we wearing?
It took awhile for the scene to come into focus. Everything was black and I was trapped in that sticky film. Eventually the film dissolved and I became aware that I was floating (in the vision). Hovering a good few or more feet off the ground. It was dark. There was a slight glow coming through trees. Either moon light or the last bit of sunlight. I was in the forest or just outside the forest. There were coniferous trees. The kind that look like they’re dripping. I was wearing a long flowy dress. I was a young woman somewhere between 25 – 40.
He had us go to our house. See it from the outside. Then from the inside. We are eating. Who is with us? What are we eating?
My house is a cabin in the woods. The inside is wood. The table is wood. Everything is made from wood. I am eating alone. It’s soup. Everything is peaceful. Quiet. I am alone, but I do not feel alone. There is a black cat at my feet.
He asks us what do we do? What is our job?
I collect plants. I make plant medicine in my kitchen. I am peaceful. I spend time with the spirit. Time in the forest. I work peacefully.
He had us invision another scene. Open ended.
A mob is after me. They’re angry. A woman helps me escape. She hides me. They either throw or shoot things at me. I think I am hit.
He had us invision another scene
There’s fire. Lots of fire. My house is on fire. It’s burning to the ground. I watch it from a safe distance. I was full of sadness and anger, my body charged.
He had us invision another scene
I saw nothing
He had us invision our death
There is an angry mob. They want my head. They have me captured. They are going to kill me in front of everyone, but I don’t see how. The woman who helped me is there. She’s sad, but powerless. She did not get caught. As I’m imagining this, my physical body is kind of shaking. Twitching. There is intense energy rushing through me. My breath is rapid. I shed a tear. I was afraid.
He asked if there is someone I know from this life who I knew in that life.
A friend pops into my head
He said to imagine yourself in a healing place with healing energy.
I kept shivering. I couldn’t control it. And my body kept twitching. I was breathing very quickly and having a hard time calming back down. Or at least just not calming down quickly. I felt very strong energy in my body. Finally, I settled.
He asked what lesson had we learned in that life
My mind was blank. No words, no images. And I wondered if I did not learn a lesson. If that is part of my problem. -If anything, I wondered if I learned to hate and fear.
So then this is over. We talk about it. We are going to do another visualization. We are going to meet our spirit guide. We get to a point where he says we’re standing in a clearing. Across the clearing is a grove of trees.
I immediately see a glowing life there. It looks like a glowing white cross. I feel energy radiating. (which is interesting because I’m not religious)
He says we will see our guide.
Yup, I think
He says the guide will move into the clearing.
As the guide gets closer, the glow settles down. It is a man. He has on a tall white hat like a catholic priest. Like the pope. He had had his arms outstretched creating the cross, but now they are down. I feel an incredible energy moving through my physical body. I have intense shivers.
He says our guide will tell us its name
aswanda, ahwanda, ashunda, ashwanda? I am confused (ashwaghanda is an herbal supplement I’ve been taking)
He says the guide hands us a box. What is in the box?
At first it is darkness. Only darkness is in the box. Then a rainbow is shooting out of the box into the sky. What does it mean? I think. “Out of darkness comes light” is the feeling I get.
Then he says, your guide has a message for you
I hear nothing. I try to be very open. I see a volcano. An erupting volcano shooting lava up and dripping down the sides. It’s beautiful. But what does it mean? I ask this guide. Power. An explosion of power. But what does that mean? From the depths of the earth will come a great power and light. But what does that mean? No answer
Then he says, your guide has a message for the group
I try to clear myself and be open again. I see a cloud of dust. Kicked up dirt. Billowing up from the ground. It’s a stampede. A massive stampede, but all I see is the dust. What does that mean? I ask. Power. What does that mean? The power of the masses. What does that mean? No answer. The energy of the stampede is not scary or angry, but persistent and steady.
That was the end of the experience. I didn’t know quite what to make of it. I do have a connection to plant medicine and spiritual journeys of sorts, but more on the outskirts I’d say. I spent 7 weeks living in the jungle of Belize in 2007. While there, I got into identifying plants and making medicine for the first time. While I was working in the kitchen I had the strangest sensation like I had done it before. Like I was tapping into some past power. Whether it was memory of the land, the house I was in, or my own past self, I was unsure. But the feeling was very strong. This experience reminded me of that. You can read about my Belize experience in my book, “Blessed – A Trip Through Belize.”
Another thing to note is about a week ago I tried to have a lucid dream. My intention once lucid was to ask the dreamspace what I should do. What should I do with my life? Where is my path headed? I did not become lucid that night, but I had a short dream scene where I had decided to go to school for herbal medicine. I told my mom I was going to start the school next year. My Mom said she thought I had let go of this plan and moved on. I told her the idea was never completely out of my mind. (Last year, in waking life, I had decided to go to to school for herbal medicine and then changed my mind)
I tried to have a lucid dream that night of the QHHT to ask the dreamspace more about this experience, but with no success. I’ve been sleeping very deeply recently with no hope of gaining consciousness. I think this is due to the new moon. Instead, the next morning I did a meditation focusing on this experience. You can read about it here.